I just wanted to share what has been going on for the past week. People always say when the Lord speaks to you it is always for you first before it is for anyone else. I found this to be true over the past two weeks. Everything I have written about on ” Bloom in Journey” I have been tested on. The Lord brought certain situations to me, where I had the opportunity to choose Him or my self. I must confess that in majority of the situation I chose myself. I chose to go with my feelings over what God’s word says. My external experiences had more power over me than the Spirit of God that is within me. Needless to say, I was very disappointed in myself and I really felt defeated! I felt like I would never pass the tests when they would arise again. But even those thoughts were a plan of the enemy, hoping I would forget that God’s mercies are new each morning. I humbled myself before the Lord and repented. As I spoke with Him I said something that really put my struggles in a nut shell and a weight was lifted. This was because I understood why I was failing the tests. I knew that other opportunities would come for me to exhibit the love of God and I had to be ready to war with my flesh when the time came. Like I said in my introduction, this is about growing and edifying each other and being transparent is part of that. This week I failed the test the Lord brought my way because I chose to obey what I felt instead of what His word said. Believe me when I say, I literally heard the Holy Spirit say ” remember love is kind, take the lower seat, forgive, let it go” and my flesh said “no”. It got to point where it became easier to listen to how my flesh told me to respond than the voice of the Holy Spirit. The voice of my flesh became louder than the Holy Spirit. However, I am thankful that God met me right where I was and shook me by using a the preacher at church on Sunday reminding me to ” Remember what He said” and to “S.T.A.N.D”. This is how we stand : Saturate yourself in the word, Think good thoughts, Apply the word to your situation, Never lose sight of the enemy’s tactics and last Don’t get it twisted( We can’t allow our circumstances to diminish the authority of what’s within us). So I am ready again for more tests, asking God for the strength to choose the road less traveled! To not give in to my flesh but to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit. Let this scripture be a Reminder to you and I : ‘Don’t you realize that you become the slave of whatever you choose to obey? You can be a slave to sin, which leads to death, or you can choose to obey God, which leads to righteous living. ‘ Romans 6:16
What’s so crazy about all of this is my next blog post will be about this same thing which I wrote last week Monday but I didn’t post. Before I could post it God tested me on it! It shows us that we are responsible and held accountable for everything the Lord reveals, shows, teaches or gives us! We must decide what we will do with it. Will it be on good soil, among the rocks or among the thorns. Unfortunately, this time it fell among thorns. But guess what seeds can be replanted on good soil. When they begin to grow they will BLOOM AND NOT WITHER! Let’s pray!
With Love through Christ, Nadesha
P.S trying something new with the voice recorded prayer. I really hope this is a blessing!