I feel like a fish out of water….. Wait before I go there I have to greet everyone! I greet you all in the Mighty Name of our Lord Jesus Christ.. I am kidding but I am so serious! Hey y’all! It has been forever and I am horrible for it.. I’ve been absent from my blog but I’ve been present with the Lord. Lol…. But seriously I missed writing for the blog, I missed reading my the posts from my fellow bloggers.
Okay now I can move on.. I feel like a fish out of water. If I can have one reason why I haven’t written its because I felt like there was nothing to say. But then I would be lying because God is always speaking, I guess fear stopped me from writing it. But I am back for real this time.
I want to start by just sharing my heart for a second. Today, i received some news that kind of led me to a place where I was really discourgaged. Feeling like every time I stepped out in faith to do what the Lord has asked me to do there is such a strong resistance it’s like I want to quit…. Read carefully, I might want to quit but I’m not quitting. The greater the obedience the greater the resistance. The greater the obedience the greater the resistance.. Once more for the stubborn folks in the back like myself– The greater the obedience the greater the resistance. Like one of my besties told me the devil is not just going to let you do it… I have to fight through it.
Literally, war through it. Warring through my own emotions, self-doubt, and uncertainty. Instead I must trust in God who is victorious in every battle, who is Mighty and has no doubt and God who is always certain. Everything He does is certain, He doesn’t make a decision and then changes His mind. He decides and Acts- Period.
So what’s my issue? Why do I shrink in the midst of resistance? Can I be honest with you, maybe it’s just me…. But the potential impact of obedience scares me. Let me explain: When we obey God there is a responsibility on the individual and an enormous consequence that is manifested in the earth. As a result, I don’t want to fail. I want to do and be all God has asked and called me to be. That’s the part that scares me, the potential to fail…. which all boils down to fear. But who do I serve, fear or the only true and living God? That’s where the rubber meets the road for me.. Do I allow the fear of failing to stop me from being who God has called me to be?
I will have to say no.. Fear is real but I don’t have to allow it to impact me. What the Lord asks of us is to be willing vessels. I’m learning that I have to take myself out of equation. Just be willing so that God can do the rest. God gives the instruction, we obey and He brings it to fruition. I’ve been learning how to REST for the past 3 years and I am still learning.
In the time we are living in, resistance will be magnified internally and externally. I believe God will and has given us the strength to bear and endure everything that comes our way. If you are like me that might look like bawling your eyes out and screaming but you endure nonetheless.
I will like to end by saying, God is the one who makes the promise. Therefore God is sure to keep it!
‘ Trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) in the Lord and do good; so shall you dwell in the land and feed surely on His faithfulness, and truly you shall be fed. Wait for and expect the Lord and keep and heed His way, and He will exalt you to inherit the land; [in the end] when the wicked are cut off, you shall see it.’ Psalm 37:3,34 AMPC
‘ Do you not know that if you continually surrender yourselves to anyone to do his will, you are the slaves of him whom you obey, whether that be to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience which leads to righteousness (right doing and right standing with God)?’ Romans 6:16 AMPC